My girlfriend did not say good morning. I got a text with al anon meetings and she said there are plenty in town and I should go. I feel like she is saying leave me alone and go do something else besides focus on her. It feels so cold hearted. We never even discussed me going to these. She has been asking me to get a job almost everyday for 2 months. I told her I'm going to a job fair today and she never said good luck or mentioned it today. She has a good memory so it would have been nice to hear good luck or something. I gave her a prayer emoji and Ive decided only to speak when spoken too. I'm on her time at this point in the relationship and she hasn't left me yet. I feel like I'm on the way out. She has cut off almost all communication and changed all the things we used to do together. In the begging of the relationship, this is what I wanted. I feel like she tried to bring me in real tight, even down to the time she wakes up. I agreed and got super attached and then she pushed me away. She still says she wants to make things work. We text throughout the day and it's mostly her dumping on me about my life situation and how it's not good for her but she is open to keep going. Then at night I wait patiently for her to call me and we have an hour on the phone. This is a long distance relationship. I used to get jealous of her and I've toned it down to do my part. I'm not perfect and her view is never complain, never explain, trust and verify. It feels like she's a player, but I'm the one that is playing her by not trusting her. It's so sad. I have to do spiritual work all day and she still makes me feel like I'm not good enough for her and if I'm not careful I start questioning my self worth. I don't know how to make this a healthy dynamic
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