sweetie, you are loved and cared for here. I have no idea as to why there aren't responses (oh wait I do!) so just let that go as it has no reflection on you as person, community member, friend.....okay?

Vulnerable sounds hard to be feeling with all you have going on. All I can offer is keep at this as best you can........ask directly for what you need from us and others in your support network.

(((ww))) I'm dogpaddling to stay afloat and I used to be lifeguard! We all do the best we can. Thinking fondly of you and all your kin.