Ugh. I’m still pretty unstable. I mean I’m not in an episode thank goodness. But on the daily I never really know how it’s gonna go. I do know I have the most trouble at php because I have to do therapy that I don’t really want to do bc it’s so painful.

I’ve been having trouble falling asleep because I can’t seem to relax my body. Today I woke up early too because my damn back hurt SO MUCH. We’re getting a new mattress ASAP, this one is hard as a rock. We had a memory foam topper but that made it too soft. I need medium firm apparently.

What do others do to relax before bed? I turn off the tv and my phone at 8:30-9pm but I’ll still listen to a show, just not watch because of the light. I think maybe grounding exercises might help. Just a few to calm down.