My mom, well actually nobody knows just how bad things really are for me. My meds arent working anymore. Its like I'm not even on them anymore. Food doesnt taste good anymore plus I can't eat much in general and my head always hurts and theres just all this anxiety that never stops no matter what I do. It used to be just when the weather was bad. Now its happening when the weather is nice. And my valiums go straight through me. Forget about leaving the house. I can't even go into a gas station for a soda. People who are pushing me to go back to work right now are nuts. I nean, things are bad. Literally nothing brings me joy anymore. At least I'm over my transference therapist or else I'd be off the deep end for sure if I still had thoughts and feelings for her.