It was windy here in Ontario too but not treacherous. I had a quiet day with my dog. We played tug with an old sock. She's so strong and determined! Did some stinkin' thinkin' about how messy my life has been. I am eager for the end. Thankfully i am 55 with most of my life behind me. I wouldn't want to be young again with all that misery and desperation ahead. I'm so ashamed of myself and ashamed of my life, so dysfunctional i can't even participate in the workforce. My mom lived to 70 and unfortunately my doctor says he can tell from my cholesterol profile that i have her longevity genes rather than my dad's heart disease genes as he died at 54. I've already outlived him. But i have my dad's personality dysfunction genes so maybe it won't be much longer. I'm neglecting my health so that should help speed things along too.

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