I noticed that quick look of pity you gave me Thursday night. I think you do understand how scared I am. Don't leave me. I don't think much of her anymore. The other day for the first time in about 2 months I remembered being left alone christmas 2020. And I remember how sick I felt every time I did therapy with her. And I don't feel those things with you. You are just normal.

I want to go to the hospital but I think I just need to eat and its messing up my thinking. Theres really no reason for me to be there besides the fact I just want to go there. I actually really need to go to these medical appointments I have next week more then go to an IP mental health hospital for no reason. But I will discuss this with you.