Hey,

I hope you liked the tea bags, or a colleague liked it. I feel it's important to pay you a fee in some small way, yes...because in our sessions together with all the other stuff you do with regards to me...it's focused on me and my needs.

You see some of my blind spots, and we're obviously long past the time you had to be so careful about how you highlighted a possibly unhelpful pattern about me.

Do I miss having more friends? Of course... I did not expect to be betrayed so badly by them, then to endure more abuse and facing houselessness twice now. I need to listen to my gut more, that low key uneasiness even when someone seemed quite alright for a long time.

Sometimes I don't know if it's irrational anxiety or a "correct" gut feeling. Grateful to my remaining friends, and of course, how I adapt and recover better even when I'm under a high load of chronic stress.

I clearly still need you as a mentor for the super difficult stuff (relative to my increasing capacity), and I do practice a lot of stuff outside in my life.

I'm going to look into muscle armouring, and it will be an interesting discussion after intry different exercises on what helps me and what doesn't.