I have a raging porn addiction at the moment and it has been going on for about half a year now. This past year I have been on a steep downward slope, and also dealing with body image issues has made porn almost a way of validating myself and my need to feel wanted. Usually it is men with porn addictions so I haven't told anyone because that conversation is awkward and I don't want any of my peers to view me differently. I can't go a single day without watching it and while I "relieve" myself it feels so good, but then immediately after I feel dirty and that my perception of love and sex is tainted. I can't hold down a boyfriend because they can't satisfy me like porn can, because I'm alone and only have to worry about pleasing myself. With guys I just feel like I'm so hung up on pleasing them that I psych myself out. I was also sexually abused so my view of intimacy is so screwed up to a point where it can't be healed. On a ramble at this point but I had to get it out.