Today, I am frustrated with medication. Actually, I've been that way for a few months. My doctor found something that seems to have finally lifted the fog of depression that I've been living with since August and today I realized that my hand was trembling. I noticed it last wee, but thought maybe it was a result of sleeping on it or something. Today, there was no doubt, my hand was shaking involuntarily. Great, so what do I do now. Do you ever want to just give up the fight? Stop searching for the right med? Say to the world "you get what you get?" Today, I do. I also know that things will get out of hand pretty quickly and the last thing I want is to end up back in the hospital. I'm frustrated. . .
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"I knew who I was this morning, but I've changed a few times since then." ~Lewis Carroll
Bipolar I
PTSD
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