In a past post I wrote how I feel I don't belong to the family and at times they have shunned me. Years ago they used to have all sorts of occasions at my oldest brothers house. I started realizing back then that I wasn't being invited to family events. All of the family was invited, even my estranged sister and best friend were invited. I dealt with it and my older sister stood up for me and told them if I couldn't go, she wouldn't go.

So I started getting invited again to family events. On Sunday I found out that the family were all invited to my Gr nieces wedding... everyone but me. I've been weepy for the last couple of days and are getting those old feelings back of not being wanted or even that they hate me.
My oldest brothers family had a cottage up north. Everyone always was invited to go up there, even my best friend.. but I never got an invitation.
The last time I saw my nephew at the grocery store he refused to talk to me.

Family is really important to me. Maybe I'm a b**** but no one has ever told me that? I've always tried to put other peoples feelings above mine. you know take the high road.. but this one hurts. Maybe its because I'm older now.

The teariness will pass with time... but its changing my feelings about that side of the family. I think they really don't like me. I think my sister-in-law is enjoying this.
I'm in my sixties now and my health is bad. (Im trying very hard to change my health, one was by losing 50m lbs) I think its time for me to stand up for myself and not let people constantly trample over me. Its been a pattern all of my life. I think I might start paying attention to another part of the family that has also been shunned, for various reasons.
I'm cleaning up my apartment so that I can have people over that I know care about me. Maybe I need to separate and 'get a life' as they say.
Any suggestions would be really helpful.
Thank you.