i do have a therapist, she mentioned that from what it sounds like it's that he "split" on me and painted me black just based on the information i gave her.

i didn't mean to invalidate his feelings, he's been in patient before and has had a lot of struggles. i'm just worried about him. he said any issues he's having is because of me because i'm a terrible person.

i do feel safe with him, he means a lot to me. but he said i ****ed up and ruined any chances of a friendship with him, and it just doesn't make any sense to me. friends fight sometimes, i don't believe that friendships should be based off of chances. i know it's just his bipolar, i just want to support him.

i asked one of my other friends with bipolar what she would do after a fight and she said she is quick to anger and feel betrayed and will after time reach out to address what happened, but i know everyone is different.

i'm trying my best to keep up with my own treatment and help myself but this is consuming me and i just feel so terrible. i'm starting to regret ever telling him i think he should get therapy again. i'm just so sad.