((((((((((earthmama))))))))))))))

you actually hit the nail on the the head here ...... letting someone in, to the actual truth, about the way i feel for the first time .... that's what is scaring me. My hubby and a couple of friends know most of what happened .... but the raw truth of how I FEEL ..... how I COPE with it .... terrifies me. I never even faced how i really feel and cope with it myself..... i just thought everyone has had it worse than me.

My T says i have very deep trauma ..... don't know if i can face it after being so strong for the last few weeks ...... i don't know if i can go back to it all.

((((((((((((earthmama))))))))))))i have to think long and hard about this.

Jinny xx