It's generally because I'm frustrated with the way things were going on Klonopin. This time I was just pissed about Klonopin because it seems to be impossible to get off. And then I just get frustrated about it. Luckily I didn't flush all my meds. It was just the Klonopin this time. But it's super problematic when I flush controlled substances like Klonopin. Cause then the doctor has to authorize an early refill. And then that looks bad on them. And on me. So I don't know. It's just a combination of things. And it's bad for the water system.

Oh, and not to mention it's terrible for my mental health to quit things like Klonopin cold turkey. I think I do this due to trauma though - it's a pattern I had that started my second psychotic episode which lasted for a pretty long time. That's why I mentioned that I should talk to my therapist about it.

And my second psychotic episdoe was by and large worse than my first. Just because I knew I could have prevented it by not going off my meds full stop.