Oops! I think I did too.

Yes it is lousy feeling like the addiction comes before you! Caleb told me the other day that he can go for over an hour without smoking- like at an airport or on an airplane- if he "has to" but that's the thing, isn't it: he doesn't WANT to not smoke every 15 minutes- or sometimes even less than that when chain smoking. Or maybe it's every 10 minutes I don't know- whatever it is it's too often for me. He doesn't care that maybe I don't enjoy being around smoke so often. And when he stays at my place he's going to want to smoke on my balcony which the lease says is strictly prohibited and you can get in trouble if you let your friends smoke on property! Addictions suck. What's worse is the mental addiction. The physical isn't as bad as the mental gymnastics they have to go through to justify smoking to themselves. Usually it's just "I want to so I'm going to. Period!"