It's really kind of weird, L. This afternoon I recognized that how I've been feeling is kinda like, I've walked away from my best friend. Even though intellectually of course I know we were never and can never be friends, that's how I feel. It's a sadness I can handle though now that I have identified where it's coming from! That's the weird part. That it's a sadness I can handle now that I've named it. Surprising to me. I've done some really good work in the last few days that I think is what brought me to this point. The poems I've been writing, listening to an online lecture about Shadow work, and also watching different interviews (especially Roberts!) on the dreamwork summit this week have all been very helpful in reaching this point. I miss who you were to me, but it's okay. As I must have said to you at least 50 times I never intended to be in therapy forever - so there was always going to have to be a goodbye at some point! And, of course, I have a version of you in my heart. I also know that I can call you if I decide I want to come back. And I might still. But for now I'm okay.


Thank you for being the you that you were with me.