For me, I know what would make me feel better - to be alone but I am very codependent and not secure with my emotions and feel stuck in a not always happy marriage. I still need some time to do more grieving after my sister passed away two and a half months ago from a sudden heart attack at age 61. I still try to make sense of it all and try to believe it, understand it. No one I can really vent to about it right now. Just trying to keep my emotions in check.