Wow, I haven't had a dream like that in a long time. I know that will never happen K, but it's obviously what a part of my heart desires. To be fully embraced as a part of the family, your family. It was so good to see you again, even if only in my dream. God it felt real. Maybe the first part will in some way become a reality one day, I can still hope for that, but the rest will live as a fantasy inside of me. Honoured by me. Respected by me, Loved by me. Holding that sweet sweet baby close to my chest with you stood next to me was one of the most magical (if totally unrealistic) things ever.