Present. Don't worry about me, just been "busy"

I suppose I should give a legitimate update. I've been struggling with using again. I don't really want to quit. Call me stupid, weak, whatever, I don't care. I'm doing what I know to survive.

Everything is set up for me to get into ACT except being approved for Medicaid. Waiting on gov't of course.

I was supposed to have an appointment with my NP 10 days ago but I didn't know so I was informed of that when I called today asking when I'm supposed to talk to her again. Would've been nice to be told I was supposed to call on the 4th... Telehell appointment on Tuesday.