Boy have I run the gamut of emotions today. Mostly bc of the group yesterday still messing with my mind. Flipping from agitated depression to fury and back again. But I finally talked in group and it was a huge weight off my shoulders. I couldn’t be specific as I didn’t want to trigger anyone but just admitting out loud that my relationship with my first husband was ****** really helped.

Now I’m back to hypomanic. I cleaned the living room and started clearing off the kitchen table. I’m sitting in the backyard listening to punk music super loud, well as loud as my phone can go. It’s ok out, mid sixties but no sun and breezy so I have my heavier hoodie on plus a hoodie to cover my legs lol. I have leggings on bc I was gonna go to the gym this morning but my stomach was upset. Yesterday was the second time I’ve taken the gabapentin for sleep and also the second time I’ve been nauseous after taking it and into the morning :-/ I’m not gonna take it tonight to see if it’s the gaba or my GI issues acting up. I hope it’s not the gabapentin or at least that the side effect will lessen bc it’s working really well, I have to take much less seroquel.