I had a therapy session today it was good. I talked a little about my Grandpa passing away 9 years ago and how painful it is every year. He was my care taker after my Mom died when I was 15. He also abused me sexually and emotionally.
I miss him and yet it just feels so wrong to feel this way. I can't seem to get beyond feeling so guilty for everything that happened to me.
I have tons of nightmares and flashbacks to living with him. It's so difficult to put it into words or describe how im feeling. I hope therapy can help I feel bad for my therapist that I had to change the topic in mid session today. Thank you for reading.