Thank you so much Lydiamarilyn for reminding me that I don't deserve that treatment. Sometimes when I've felt so unlovable I have began to think that I might have deserved it. Thankfully I have had no serious relationship with this person in question but I have a list of dealbreakers when it comes to any kind of relationship with any person, and I think this person has met a lot of them. Fortunately I'm not married to this person so I have the wiggle room to get out.

And for divine1966 I have developed some of my bitterness because I think that it will make me more alert to possible hurts and I can prevent them ASAP. I'm sorry to cause any sort of offense. I don't know where else to turn because I only see my therapist every two weeks, I also am afraid of bothering my friends and my parents though they're supportive have sometimes said the wrong thing at the wrong time when I'm stressed. I probably should talk to people about this PM but I doubt there's anybody who would know me enough to want to talk to me or try to put up with me.

The reason I'm saying things like women only like men who treat them like dirt is when I've asked others out I've always been told to just be friends when once upon a time when I was younger I treated women with loads of respect and had lots of them as friends. But what I had wasn't good enough.