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Apr 22, 2022, 02:13 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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Originally Posted by Nammu
Ohh Beth, I feel yah as police paranoid ness is a thing with me too despite never having a bad time with them. Hope you slept.
I didn’t get good sleep. I’m falling a sleep almost immediately but waking up after an hour or two. And intermittently sleeping or more accurately just dreaming bits and pieces. I’m a bit worried I might be snappy today and my daughter always takes that to heart. She’s in her 30’s with two kids but still very sensitive to my moods. Intellectually she knows it’s not about her, but… I’ve got to keep a lid on that so we can have a nice day out. Why oh why does sleep get to control me and not the other way around? I’m so envious of people who fall into bed and sleep until it’s time to get up.
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Yes, the police thing, ugh. When I've become way into paranoia the police turn into Nazis, uniforms, boots, all of it. At that point I'm just plain in fight-or-flight mode.
Anyway, I'm very sorry about your sleep. Really - why do we have to be controlled by our sleep?! I know it's a symptom (or cause) of mental illness, but it seems especially mean, not being able to sleep.
I sure understand about your daughter being sensitive to your moods. Mine is the same, and has convinced herself that being around me is too stressful for her. It started when she was a little girl, despite my assurances that she did not need to caretake my moods, and that she certainly was not responsible for them.
I hope the time you spend with your daughter goes smoothly and well.
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