Sometimes I have this fantasy of just lying in bed with you. Just next to you. Nothing intimate at all. No touching or anything. No sleeping or anything either. Just us lying facing each other. Sometimes we talk. Other times we don't. I don't know why I have this feeling sometimes. I don't recall having it about anyone else even about transference T. I never did my telesessions in my bed though when I was seeing her. To me that was crossing boundaries. She could not see my bed ever. You are different.

I don't know. Maybe I really am just confused.