SP, that's terrible, I heard those can be painful as heck. ((hugs)) Hope everything will be okay!

I've been doing so-so lately. I read a Carl Jung book titled, Answer to Job, the first half was okay, but it took a weird turn and got off subject. Interesting to read Jung trying to psychoanalyze the Christian Judeo God, wow! lol

I need to figure out a lot of big things in my life. But reconnecting with reading has been a godsend. The brothers Karamazov was such a beautiful, perfect book. I've been going through Alan Watt's speeches while I work. What an interesting mind. It's Eastern meets Western thoughts on philosophy, psychology and theology. I love it, gives me something interesting to think about while I work. = ) Newtus, you might like this guy!

I should probably work on my PTSD more. I just dont know where else I can go considering I wrote a book about it, exploring it completely. This might be what healing is, this might be my new normal which I need to accept. Or perhaps, as time passes, things will consciously get further int he rear-view mirror and I won't be triggered as much? I have noticed that at night, i really dont go into a spiral of racing negative thought patterns that keep me up all night. I no longer have panic attacks or very much anxiety. I am gaining my emotions back, but it's very slow.