I can relate to some of what you say

I have fibro, so I can't just get up and do heavy exercise- I also have BDD, and hate my looks. in fact: if their was a casting for the lead roll of shrek, I think the movie company would turn me down for looking too ugly.

I know my weight's an issue. apart from the fact I am a massive overeater, their have been ocasions where I have been outed in pubblic- she's too fat for this, or that, or the other

my problem is, that I have nothing to work towards or no self confidence- or I guess even longing to feel comfortable in my skin.

I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm a disgrace to society, in my mother's words, " a waste of oxygen"
I've just given up and the only reason I'm living is because I'm too weak to do anything else