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Apr 26, 2022, 04:55 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
I have to go to my PHP. The dr is there. Honestly I don’t think this is a med issue, I’m on like 6. I think it’s an explosion of the reality of a past trauma in my mind and my brain is reacting accordingly. Trying to trip me up. Trying to tell me I’m not real so I can feel like nothing bad happened cause I’m not even a real person.
I know that sounds a little iffy but I think it’s true.
Anyway I refuse to go IP unless they take me kicking and screaming because it will ruin my relationship with RS and also my son. And I’m pretty sure I’d be forced into ECT or long term hospital. Or residential. All bad options.
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Definitely does not sound iffy to me, I'm right there with you. Trauma feels like there's no floor to stand on, no walls, yet I feel trapped.
I'm thinking I'm going to wash my hair and turn cold water on my head to try to help (literally) pull myselve(s) together.
I probably have no right to say this, but....don't go IP. Where you're at IP will only further confuse.
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