Awkward. Today the team lead asked me point blank if my trainer has been talking about her. Yes. Then she asked me if the things my trainer has been saying about her are negative. Yes. She was sad about it.

I feel guilty. I’m sure I haven’t been neutral when my trainer is complaining about the lead behind her back. I also feel tired of being in the middle of the drama. Again. I also feel annoyed at myself for not having more integrity in shutting down the trash talk.

So I’m just going to feel all the feelings until if & when they go away. I’ve had worse feelings! They can’t hurt me.

In others news, I haven’t been sent to other offices (yet), but my trainer told me there’s an opening coming up in a smaller office closer to my house for more pay & benefits. Whatever will be, will be.