HUGS Desoxyn. I'm sorry you are feeling so badly. I'm sorry you are struggling so much. If I were with you right now I would hug you and hold you until you feel better. But I am hugging you in my heart.

I know the hospital sucks. But maybe it would help you. I know I hate being at the hospital but I actually think later on that it is a good thing.

Keep talking here. We are listening. We care about you and we love you. I would be very sad if you were to kill yourself.