I felt terrible this morning at work. I said to myself, "I'd rather have my leg sawed off than to feel this bad all of the time".

And then I started to feel better 1-2 hours later. Not sure if it's the microdose or phenibut. But I feel better.

I see my psychiatrist on Monday. I'm taking all of my meds.. I'll let him know.. Although I did before. I'm not sure what he can do.

The only problem with me is failing to hold on. I sink low, then back to normal - Again and again. It's tiring.

I thought about drinking alcohol but decided that I wouldn't today.