My hematoma on my neck is almost gone. That’s good. Left with a big scar where they removed my lump.

I apparently have sarcoidosis affecting my lymph nodes in my neck, my chest, and armpits. Removed the one lump in my neck. Chest and left armpit have disappeared but it’s still in my right armpit. CT scan in September to see how it’s going but doctor figures it should go away.

However, I have to admit I’ve been drinking more than I should for a while now. I got caught daydrinking and I’m off alcohol for now. Maybe I can drink moderately after a break, maybe I can’t.

But for months now I’ve had this thing I thought was nothing where I feel nauseated and sometimes vomit first thing in the morning. I thought it’s because I was hungry or something or meds. Also added in I feel bloated sometimes and my appetite has been less. I just thought because of stress.

But I feel less stressed and still. I spoke to my doctor and the other day ran some blood tests. I missed his call today but he left a message he’ll call me next week to talk because there were some abnormal results with my gallbladder.

Google tells me that alcohol shouldn’t have messed up my gallbladder but I worry I’ve ruined my health because of my stress drinking. I’m such an idiot.

And to top that I had to drop this one college class I was taking because I ran out of extensions and couldn’t finish it. I couldn’t focus on it.

I feel a mess, honestly.

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