I know this will not fix your past but I have made tremendous progress this year using the Calm app. There are 3 daily sessions that are approximately 10 minutes each. Every day it us a new concept or way to think about or deal with life that include a short meditation.

While I also go to therapy, I use this app daily and often start each session with what I learned from Calm that week. It also has a million other things to do but I like to just focus on the 3 dailies based on my time frame. It costs about $60 a year but much cheaper than therapy. Personally I bought i to a lifetime membership for about $150 during mt second year. It is tge best investment I have ever made.