If T wants me to talk to pdoc I will but I don't know how to stop presenting well because it's mostly inside me. Pdoc wants our next meeting in person. I'm nervous about that too. H didn't even realize he took over my meds weeks ago until I outright said it on Friday. I'm quiet so I don't talk about the things I think and feel I stay with the acceptable problems.

I'm really pissed that everyone is lying. I'm know it's not true but it feels like it. I don't get the game they're playing. putting it into words makes it so much more scarier. I understand that she knows my dx. but I wish I didn't slip up.