I am not sure I understand the definition of being co-dependent, but I probably am.

I had been in therapy and my long history of major depression probably doesn't help my state of mind, but I am just too tired to keep on trying. I have thought about trying therapy again, but the fact remains I have caused people pain, and I no longer want to live with that knowledge. Selfish? Yes! But if people only knew what turmoil lies beneath my "happy" exterior, I really think they would understand.