The person (Who was helping me with sui thoughts) that I was talking about yesterday (With Avoidant PD) opened up to me on Molly - He wrote like 20 pages lol - Crazy how much he reminds me of myself. We will be good friends!

Super smart, very genuine and strong emotionally, mentally and able to articulate the things that I've been too tired/hopeless to do.

It's surely some sign to balance out the darkness/nihilistic hell that I've been dealing with.

It's weird.. I wanted to use the chem again at a festival or something for some hope/understanding. And I just needed a contact high..

I still need to decompress and be alone from..

Mind disorganization.

I've learned this from my mom recently after I got extremely upset when my dad made her cry (Because he was so mean to her during the last visit) - And I realize.. Wow.. She is so emotionally strong. She's always naturally on the chem.. No joke.

I have to continue.. This part of the world/reality needs help. If I am to find any meaning, I have some sort of a brain.. I can try to help.