paranoia/anxiety/stress is getting to me. At this point I'm hoping T doesn't hospitalize me for being too honest about how much I'm struggling. H may come with me a little while into my session to give context. I want to see Miguel graduate, all his family is coming in. This is not a time for this. I can't hide this hospitalization if she hospitalizes me. My thoughts are dark but I wont act on any of them. And the stupid feelings of bugs crawling all over me.

He's not. It's a big change. He moves out in little over a week. Then has to find a job quickly. He's struggling it's finals week and he got the stomach bug. I'm excited for him. He has a final paper and presentation on Wednesday.