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*Beth* · May 02, 2022, 04:40 PM

I finally made it back here!

I went to bed a bit earlier and allowed myself to sleep as much as possible. What a wonderful difference.

Extremely dissociative, sliding around in time. A lot of fear of the police. They came to our house repeatedly when I was a child...it was so embarrassing because the neighborhood was classic '70's suburbia and neighbors would "ask questions"..."I saw the police at your house last night, honey...is everything oookaaay?" So instead of the truth it would be, "Oh, my mom thought she saw someone in our back yard."

Anyway. So I went for a pedicure yesterday and it was a smart thing to do. I seriously needed that self-care and relaxation. But the place I usually go to was (oddly) closed, so I chose another one. The 2 women working were Vietnamese and spoke no English except to understand "pedicure." I love that experience, because it's like being in a whole different country. And we manage pretty well, even with the language thing.

So I was looking through a basket of around 80 colors of gel polish little tab things to choose a color. I'm so sensitive to color, so it always takes me a frustratingly long time to choose.

Finally - there it was - this color that looked exactly like the Pacific ocean when the sun hits the waves. A mossy-green with a blue undertone and gold and silver glints. I guess the polish is holographic.

So on and so forth. Lovely pedicure, then the tech applied the polish. I figured oil, lotion, massage, and I'm done. Remember to keep relaxing, breathing. About 70 minutes, total. I had to be sure to be home in time to pick up the cats' food dishes 2 hours prior to testing Sidney's pre-dinner glucose.

Then the tech looked at my right big toe, said some things, and rub, rub, rub - she removed the polish on that toenail. Redid the whole deal...base coat, 3 coats of polish, top coat, and all the black-light drying in between every coat.

All finished...but again she looked at my toenail, rub, rub, rub. A repeat of the entire process. She didn't speak or understand any English at all, so I couldn't ask her what was going on.

3rd time. Mumble, mumble, rub, rub, rub - again, 20 minutes of the entire polishing process.

By this time I was getting very tense because while the chair I was sitting in had given me a terrific back massage, it had gotten stuck in one spot on my back and the thumping was feeling uncomfortable. Kept pushing the button, but I couldn't get the freakin' machine to turn off. And, the time was ticking away.

Thankfully, the other tech came over, yelled something at the first tech, nudged her away, and she did the right big toe process again. FOURTH time! Finally - Hurray! Done. She gave my legs and feet a nice lotion massage and I was out of there...2 hours and 10 minutes I made it home exactly in time to pick up the kitties' food dishes.

I felt sorry for the first lady. I wonder if she had OCD?

Anyway, I think I'll stick with my regular shop when possible. But now I have toenails just the color of the ocean

I've had some "interesting" pedicure experiences, but I think that one won the prize!

Okay, I'm off to sweep, mop, and take a shower. Had an encouraging email from my T this morning and I'll see her tomorrow.

Hugs and love all around