I can’t do this. I got all freaked out bc I have to appeal my denial but I was supposed to do it writhing 30 days of receiving the letter and I don’t remember when I received the latter, in fact I don’t remember even receiving the letter, only RS does. So I’ve switched back into a frenzied mania but at least it’s only hypomania and it’s situational so it should resolve shortly.

But I’m so tired. So tired of the switching back and forth. I know it’s all reaction to uncovering trauma but I just…it’s so hard. My thoughts are totally racing now after being stopped up. I want to read, I can’t. I’m trying to watch tv but I can’t. I half finished a couple of things…I did one Guinea pig cage before losing interest and I did a third of the dishes before calling it quits.

Also I have no money but I do have an interview at the dollar store tomorrow lol. I can’t imagine they won’t hire me, they’re kind of desperate and I’m a perfectly responsible, capable human being. I don’t think it will be too much, I’m going to say I have to limit my hours. I can handle a four hour shift. I won’t make much but even $100 a week is better than $0.