So.. I wrote a friend a message last night about being an idiot for blocking our mutual friend (We hung out in the Summer of 2018) - I told him that he may not realize, but has helped me a lot etc..

I felt bad when I woke up, thinking about it. I took the 60mg Vyvanse + 25mg of Zoloft, went back to sleep -

And now I don't even feel embarrassed for reaching out or anything - But there's still the lingering LOGICAL THOUGHT, related to the feeling.

It feels similar to phenibut - but I definitely notice that there's an effect on such a low-first dose. It's not numb, but less information is entering my mind at once. It's like a filter.. I have to try really hard to pay attention to the feelings from music - Almost anhedonic.

I'll just take it day by day and see what it does.. It should take 2+ weeks to feel better... I'll stick with it. If I don't like it, I'll have to stop - Or at least stay on a lower dose. Because my psychiatrist wants me to take 25mg for a week, 50mg for the second week, 75mg for the third week and then start 100mg next month.