I have a 3-month "check-in" meeting with my boss on Monday. I have NO idea what his feedback will be, nor do I know what to say to him about how I am feeling about work lately.

Yesterday, I messed something up in a spreadsheet I was working on, so the higher ups made me go through the sheet line by line to double check ALL of my work. UGH. AND, my boss called me out on the mistake, asking me why it happened. I made a mistake! It happens. I am not perfect. Then my husband tells me that's bad because I need to be perfect right now or else I may lose my job. NOT helpful.

AND, my therapist on Tuesday told me that my husband's words about being careful around leaving my old job for greener pastures came true - that my new job is no better, so basically he insinuated that my husband was right and that I was wrong in choosing to leave. Great. So, my therapist still is siding with my husband, and is quoting his words to me even.

So, maybe I made a mistake in leaving my last job - so what. I felt I had to leave because I was running out of ideas for my client websites, there was zero leadership on my team to rely on for ideas and strategies, and my favorite account manager was leaving as well. So, I made a move, and it turned out to be the wrong move. Why do I need to hear about it as though I made some sort of colossal mistake? It happens. People leave companies and then maybe land in the wrong company all the time. That's what happened. I don't see the big deal, unless it ends up harming me somehow.

I am sick of this kind of thing with my therapist, and with my husband, even. And I don't need to hear from my husband about the mistake I made at work. GEEZ. It was tough going through an entire spreadsheet, and I missed a line. No real harm done. I got the job done and I did it correctly the second go around.

But I am sure in this meeting with my boss that he will bring it up, or at least he's made note of my mistakes, I am sure.

I'm not looking forward to this meeting on Monday. My second interview also needs to be scheduled sometime in the next few days, and I am both excited and nervous. I really want this one to work out.

I worry that my mentality/self esteem is getting effected by people pointing out all my mistakes. I don't need that in my life - and frankly, it's just downright annoying af. I am a perfectionist and am working on changing that. This is going in the opposite direction if my mistakes are thrown in the face as they have been. GEEZ!