I never cry... and everything just hit me.. all at once.. and I cried for hours... my eyes.. hurt so bad..

I think.. I just "stored" "it" all... and had to cry...

everything...just "hit" me.....

my eating disorder.. that I would have... except for the PTSD... the flashbacks... the nightmares... and I just got.. so sad.. for me..not feeling sorry for me.. just sad... that my life has been so impacted..

ya know???