I’m moving down to IOP next week! And today was amazing, I felt actually baseline. Like seriously in the middle. No depression, no mania, no anger, not even high SH urges. It is just so refreshing to feel calm for once, really for the first time since like November. May it long continue!

I have reduced vraylar and will stop it tomorrow. It will take 3-4 weeks to get out of my system. I really hope the hunger and binge urges reduce, I’ve now gained 15 pounds, fast approaching my highest weight from two years ago. It needs to stop. We had a session on mindful eating today and some of it was ******** but the general concept could be helpful. At least the slowing down and really tasting my food. I also am going to be really strict with my dairy free lifestyle. I’m still having GI trouble and I think it’s a) because I’ve been eating dairy anyway and b) I’ve been stuffing myself with high sugar, high fat processed food. I need to plan my meals better. Get more fruit and veggies. I do like salads and carrots and most fruits. I also like roasted chickpeas, they’re really good! I should make my own.