Girlfriend paused relationship. Doesn't want one for a year. I asked why and she ghosted me

the following are some signs of a cheater on multiple websites:

I added my view and what she says in the following as well.

1. She pays more attention to her phone than you: See here texting in zoom meetings we attend together: who knows who.

2. She's less interested in sex. She won't let me talk about sex at anytime: Says she's a christian. Was into BDSM for 12 years and very shortly before we met.
Doesn't want me to master-bate. Which I was already working on.

3. She accumulating new clothes at higher rates than usual: She has always dressed very raw. I got over that but it is a thing. She says it's who she is and I respect that. I was difficult to see her where collars from her exes still but I got over that.

She's overly concerned with your whereabouts: She can care less where I am.

She isn't making plans for the future: She says she doesn't want sex or any relationship for a year and won't tell me why.

She won't look me in the eyes: Won't Facetime me ever. Everything is in text still so she is still engaged with me. But we have no label. She won't tell me why she doesn't want one. She ghosted me on that question. Feels like gas lighting.

She's treating you more like a friend than a lover: Yes

Her relationship status has disappeared on social media: Yes. 2 months ago.

She stops nagging: This one is not true. She nags and talks down to me because I'm not working, She tells me that my beliefs on God are ridiculous, tells me I'm not as intelligent as her, tells me I'm a pervert and I never bring up sex at all.

She's avoiding your friends and family: From the start she has tried to take them away. Says they are a bad influence. They never drink in front of me as much as her own church member drink. She says they enable me and she is the only person in my life that won't do that. She made me leave an amazing sponsor for a new one. She finally accepts my therapist. She said she knows more than her and has complex ptsd.

I am practicing autonomy and surrender. She calls the shots. I surrender to her. It's the only thing that works. She says she is working on her self and her recovery. It doesn't add up.

I don't trust her and I feel terrible about it. All I can do is focus on me and try to enjoy when she reaches out. It is daily. When I let things go from my past actions, she keeps bringing up all the things that are wrong with me. It is affecting my inner love and staying in the moment. She wants me to do that but keeps telling me whats wrong. It's hard to fuse self development with self improvement when I'm getting nagged.

She's giving you gifts for no reason: I've been getting gifts lately.

She's ignoring you: Constantly

You're spending more time apart: Absolutly

She gets mad at you about everything: YES!

She insists on taking solo trips: Says she is self sufficient and won't let me help her go to doctors appointments. ect.

She's getting mysterious phone calls: Tells me about her exes reaching out.

She's not confiding in you: Never

privacy becomes her top priority: No but don't ask.

loses her caring nature: She tells me how to improve with tough love. Talks a lot of smack

Making plans without you in the picture: Every week

Being flirty with others in your presence: Boasts mens egos in zoom meetings in front of me.

Your girlfriend will try hard to protect her dignity: All the time

Your gut feeling tells you that something is fishy: Yes

She keeps hinting that she wants a breakup: She did but keeps me around without a label?????

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There is many many more things that seem like cheating on a communication break. I hate this. I'm trying to believe her. I need to love myself and stay present right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!