Last week I posted that I had called my T asking him a question, he usually doesn't call back but did this time.

I had seen him the night before they needed to re-schedule me due to his vacation. Then not even 10 minutes later, his assistant called to cancel my next appt saying he would still be on vacation.

Okay, intellectually I know that I need to deal with this and I have tried journaling every day, several times a day. I'm going for long rides in my car. I'm trying but I really need to know why this happened the way it did. It is bringing up feelings I can't handle on my own.

I want to fax a letter or have him paged. I'm scared to do it and I'm already humiliated. What if he doesn't respond?