She says she is helping me because I'm not ready for a relationship and I need to learn the same harsh lessons she learned. I feel like she is projecting a situation where her ex was doing this to her. She defiantly has given me some life direction that I needed. Thats what makes this more difficult. I've taken myself out of the expectations of her, but I want to be strong enough to communicate with her even if we are not together. I found out she had borderline bipolar 2 and complex ptsd. She is holds a serious profession. I want to trust her that she want no relations with any man but I don't know why she tells me that. She texts me all day long at her convenience. And I get an occasional phone call. I could look for someone else but she says I'm not ready for any woman. I need to work on myself and I have a long way to go she tells me. Sad to admit she may be correct. She says I should get an immature woman if I can't wait for a year and that there is still know guarantees. I think she is testing me because she was considering putting the relationship back to a GF status. She is definitely floundering. She just can't let me go for some reason.