Ok this may be a bit off Jannie, but I dont blame God for my mental or physical problems. I blame my parents for having sex when they were so old lol. ( JUST KIDDING ) I mean they were 48 when they had me and waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back then.... jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez, no wonder I got some birth defects! But hey, its better to make the best use of what you got and go with it. You've gone to school, learned a new way of working for a living . That proves right there that Gods given you what you need to be more functional. I mean you graduated right? I think thats great! Try more to focus on the good things that are going for you rather than the bad. It makes a HUGE difference!!! Bad things are always going to happen, but so do GOOD THINGS!!!! I know for myself I've really tried to focus on those good things more. I am a more positive , upbeat, fun and functional person now than I was a few months ago when I was constantly feeling sorry for myself( THAT IS JUST ME AND MY OPINION OF MYSELF OK?)

Hope something in there helps you . Take care~

Bethy