I take 2-3 benzo a month. I don't like them anymore unless for panic cuz they make me tired. I'd rather be a little agitated than tired.

I used to complain a lot here about how sedated/tired I always was on AP's... But Vyvanse seems to have cured that + I barely lie down in the evening (I used to do that every-single-evening) so I complained about that too until I was put on Dexedrine too. 10 year tolerance to the antipsychotics also has helped.

The heart palps before sleeping are gone again - Even on the Zoloft. So I guess it could be in my head (About how serotonergic drugs effect my heart) - But i should do another EKG.

It took a loong time of trial and error with meds + I was screwing it up with the internet drugs.

My mood is still OK.