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May 09, 2022, 01:18 AM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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 My Mother's Day was peaceful and mostly happy. This is the 4th one in which my daughter didn't call, which is heartbreaking, of course. But sometimes I catch myself thinking that she's dead, in the sense that she's become a memory.
My DIL sent me a sweet message on Facebook and my son called. We had a fine conversation. He's so easy to talk with. They're off again in 2 weeks, this time to Berlin and to the Swiss Alps. After they return we'll get together. If I didn't have my kitties I'd stay in their flat while they're away. I love it there, right in the middle of the city and close to the ocean. But I have my fur balls.
I did my hair (color) and gave it an Olaplex treatment. It came out nice. Had a pleasant shower, did laundry, and gave myself fresh sheets. My bamboo blanket is arriving tomorrow, spring green this time.
Whew. So I made it through another Mother's Day without my daughter. Sometimes I wonder how many years the grief will take from my life. But then I fight inside; I don't want to lose any years because of her behavior towards me, because in no way do I deserve it. I want those years with my son.
Tonight is a chilly one, but I'll take it. Before I turn around it'll be plenty hot. Time for bed.
I hope that everyone has a really good Monday morning. I hope you see something beautiful.
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