I've been doing well, have been eating without feeling as guilty. Finding some healthier role models to motivate me so I stop restricting/obsessing about weight loss. It feels so good to finally be having a good go at recovery after all these years. Every time I think about restricting I think back to when I ended up in the hospital due to abnormal heart beat and severe dehydration and feeling like passing out. As much as I sometimes feel like going back to my old habits, that prevents me from doing it because it scares me. I don't want to die of a heart attack or something at a young age, it's not worth it.

I still sometimes obsess about weight but it's a lot less often now, it doesn't consume every second of my life anymore