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Originally Posted by eskielover
My depression was situational but no one treating me got that so I didn't either until I left the situation. I look back & wonder how I ever could have gotten that bad but with outstanding therapy we put my 54 years of previous life together & it made sense. Add better skills learned & now life is better than it ever was for me. I couldn't deny it because the depression the situation caused destroyed me & made me totally non-functional after having a good computer design engineering career.
The one in denial was my ex as he didn't believe that anything was wrong with him & neither did my parents when they were alive. After I left, he got angry when I suggested that he ho get a diagnosis to determine what was REALLY causing his total dysfunction though he said it made sense when he atiooed to think about it. The possible suggestion cane from a therapist I had when talking about all I had gone through & suggested that I might even have had more causes for PTSD than I was aware of.
It is nice to be functional again but I am constantly aware if something starts to throw me off again & I take action before it builds up but that is mostly anxiety. Love my life now (single & on my small peaceful farm surrounded by nature) so depression is totally non-existent in my life now. I sure knows what it feels like even to the point of attempting suicide to escape what I was feeling. That wasc13 years of h*ll
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I think situational depression is common, in fact I believe that's what I have. I always go through bouts of extreme sadness and loneliness as well as staring off into space thinking about things for hours, but I've noticed it gets way way worse if I'm in a negative situation all the time. It's most common when I'm dealing with someone who is toxic and manipulative, they drain the energy out of you which can trigger depressive like symptoms. Now if I'm in a situation like that and I start feeling very sad and it doesn't let up then I know I need to get out of the situation as quickly as possible, I look back at the times I stayed in those situations so long that I was downright miserable and feel ashamed I allowed myself to be in that situation for so long.