I’m still feeling baseline, this is day 4. I’m so happy. It’s an odd feeling, though, when you’ve been back and forth for so long and suddenly you’re stable! I think the vraylar may have been more trouble than it was worth. I remember it not working when I was put on it back in 2017 either. It did not help my depressed episode at all and in fact that’s when I believed my brain was trying to kill me and forcing me to look up methods. I’m also not as hungry already. Still hungry but I don’t feel like I’m going to be sick and pass out every 2 hours. So brain zaps aside I feel it was worth it to come off. It has a very long half life so it will take 3-4 weeks to get out completely and I hope to continue to recover from the side effects.

The weather is gorgeous after the weekend’s terrible rain, wind, and cold temperatures. We walked a mile yesterday. We’ll walk again this whole week. I signed us up for the NAMI walk and it’s in two weeks. I didn’t know it was a 5k! That’s around 3 miles lol. We’re gonna be tired from that!

My SIL called me last Sunday and I was able to express to my brother the importance of getting our mom out of her house ASAP. Her hoard has increased exponentially since I’ve been over there last. It’s becoming an unsafe situation for her. It’s a fire hazard, if a fire were to start downstairs I’m not sure she would make it out. She’s so isolated and depressed, it’s so sad. She won’t invite anyone over because she knows her house is terrible. *I* don’t even want to go there anymore, and I certainly don’t want my son there.

It’s in terrible shape in terms of maintenance as well, we’re going to have to sell it as a flip house. If someone want to flip it and fixes it up really nice they could make a pretty penny, it’s a 4 bedroom 2 bath house in the best part of town and the kids go to the best school in the district living there.

My mom has wanted to move for ages, she knows she’s unable to maintain the house, but it’s too hard for her to do it on her own. I’m glad my brother is finally on board with helping her out. I know he hasn’t accepted her treatment of him as a child yet but if he can do this he’s taking a step in the right direction.